^-^

There's so many great people out there. Thanks to one great friend, he has opened my eyes to the world. To be so much more outgoing than I already am. So I made a new friend, or well he's not technically a "new friend," but more so someone who I got to know more about. It turns out he wasn't what I thought he was. He's MEXICAN. >.< Because of his eyes and his skin color, he looks cambodian.. To add to that, he was in our Asia Group for International day; which made me go WTF? Eh.. Turns out he liked to draw HJ dolls that's why he joined our group.

Bleh... International day was a blast. CSF sold out once again. ^-^ I fucken love these Latinos. Errr. But APICC had alot of leftovers and ended up selling them for a quarter of the price afterwards. -___- But honestly.. I can give a shit because they don't really do anything with the money. Someone has my rice hat. I brought in eight for club week my Sophomore year and they've been in the ASB room. Now they're no where to be found.

AVID club.. Seventy percent of the funds goes to the seniors? WTF?!?!? And twenty left for the upcoming class next year?!?! Shit that means more fund-raising.. -_- I can already see multiple car washes coming up next year.

Tennis. I'm happy and sad at the same time. Coach could do her part by helping me out with the uniforms and warm-ups for next year. Summer practice schedule has already been made. Now all I need to do is be sure to remind the girls to bring a can of balls each on the first day of practice over the summer. If not then I'm forced to use the fundraising money to purchase it. So we need a box of practice balls, and a water jug this summer. As for Mara she wants the extras like a boombox... She swears.. I'm trying to help the girls get in shape before they start hitting. So I hope, that Frankie can condition with them for the three weeks until I come back. ^-^ And when I do come back, I better see an improvement. It's then that we can really start practicing. These girls have alot of potential, for example they're either really strong or really fast. If we can combine these two things, that will make a great tennis player. And who knows? Maybe by the beginning of September they'll be able to challenge me. ^-^

EEEKKKK AP entrance exams come out Monday. -___-
Taco's Chihuahuas Monday! ^-^
Tennis tourney Thursday along with Parent Night, and Spanish presentations.
June 10th Boys tennis banquet.
June 11th One year Anniversary, Downtown Disney, Cousin's B-day.
June 13th Chris's Grad party.
June 15th Graduation. =[


Thanks for reading.
Kay bye. =]

FML. School's going by so fast.

!!klasdhgasdf!

And so I feel idiotic for doing what I did. Thanks Mara… I don’t think I’ll ever take advice from you like this. Blah. You’re the reason why I keep losing so many friends. -___- But then again why do I care right? We’re all going to lose contact sometime in life. Anyways.. I should stop worrying about everyone and really focus on those who really care. Ehh. Even if some of them can annoy the shit out of me, I guess I just have to love who they are. It’s life.. People love, people hate.. Some just don’t care. FML. FTW.
WEEE!!!! ^-^
Tennis practice was soo retarded today.
I wanna stop talking him because I feel ashamed.
Errr.
Or probably it’s because I feel he wants to avoid me.

COACH is trying. I give her props. ^-^

aslkfha

4 more days until your graduation.
5 more days until I get my braces off and dance showcase.
7 more days until Terry, Jaleeza, and I go get fat.
8 more days until the class outing at San Pedro.


=D

June 4th = Tennis tourney and AVID night. [Come watch me speak!]
June 10th = Tennis banquet.

Ohhhh emmm gee.
I FUCKEN HATE THEM.
Those bitches can go to hell.

May 16, 2009

Six more days...
Lets see where this goes.

If it's just going to be the way it is right now...
The procedure will just take place.
Therefore there will be no regret.

Uh?

I feel bold enough to do anything right now.
I feel like I've just fallen really hard but I didn't hit concrete. ...
Instead, I hit an overly soft pillow.

Over time that pillow turned into a lovable teddy bear.
But that teddy bear isn't fluffy.
I think it only has less than 2 inches of fur.

This teddy bear is my bestfriend.
The one who makes me smile then tears me apart.
My teddy bear has a name.
I call it "The FAG"

Gotta loveit<3

Too too sweet.

Was it you?
Or was it someone else?
That moment was too good to be true.
Yes I know I'm overexaggerating...
But Oh well.
You make me want to boogey.
That was how happy I was.
=D

CIF...
I wonder how they did..

My SPEECH!
Was soo retarded... But it was funny.
Or LEGIT.
Was what some said.
>.>

Spanish teacher was cracking up..
-___-

May 9, 2009

The LIST.

1. I lied when I said it'd be okay for you to go out.
2. I currently changed my mind about going to college nearby.
3. My dream getaway was to be by your side.
4. I feel that we're separating.
5. I used to think it mattered how hard it was to cry... But now crying's just a reflex now to you.
6. Needs a new beginning.
7. I'm determined to start a new beginning this summer.
8. Needs to learn to let go.
9. Wants to attend the University of Hawaii.

=/

So it turns out it’s too late. Everytime I see him pass by I can’t help but look the other way. I’m glad that he has moved on so rapidly. It just proves to me that he isn’t as hurt from the break up as I am. Everything would be so much easier to live by if I just cut off all connections with him. I tried deleting his number; I even tried telling him to forget about me and delete my number. Instead this brought more tears. Why even try being friends when the pain is so unbearable? I’d rather let the pain come at full drastic speed than let it come by so slowly that it’s able to make me think of the worse. That way I could forget sooner and get out of this place.

Oh yes..

SAT 1 is done with... Now for APs and SAT 2s.
I feel blank.
At times I don't even know what I'm doing.
And why I'm doing it.
I feel so lost.
I used to be so out there..
But now I'm a reserved little one..
It's like "Carolyn is old news now."

Unfortunately, I don't talk to anyone but friends.
Close friends that is..
They can't help with what I'm going through...
But at least they're the drug that gets my mind off of things for awhile.
And that's what keeps me addicted.

=]